Exhausted

My first week of back to work is done. I am so lucky to have found such an amazing environment to be working in and it has made the transition so much easier. Leaving Elliott each morning is tough. Yesterday, he slept as I got ready and then stayed asleep so that I did not get to have awake time with him before I had to leave. Aunt Tina was here for her first day with him and I had trouble leaving without waking him up first. But knowing that I am leaving him with my mom and my sister make it easier too. The days at school are busy and I am getting used to pumping at work. Everyone has been so welcoming and kind and I can't wait for them to meet Elliott. I think about him all day long. I look at the little boys and wonder what he will be like when he is 2, 3, 4, 5, 6....will he like soccer, will he ride the trikes or play in the dirt? Will he be kind, sensitive, caring, and friendly? The possibilities for who he will be and what he will like are endless and so exciting. At the end of the day I rush home to see him. Can't wait to hold him and play with him...just look at him and love him. At the end of the day I am exhausted. But I save every last bit of energy to be there for him. To give him what he needs. Because, at the end of the day, he needs me and being a mommy is my most important job.